When I watch the TV shows about high school ... I could not relate to the experience of the geeks --- who were bullied by the popular ones. I was a certified geek. Good grades, thick glasses, bad skin ( lots of acne ). However, I was never bullied ... in fact the popular kids and I got along well.
Of course - I can relate to those times when I would find myself crushing on someone - some of them even my friends .... but just admire them from the sidelines. I was a bright kid ... but when it comes to attracting a mate ... I was never good at it.
The pimples are gone, the thick glasses are gone ... and the good grades have paid off - helping in getting me good positions in the company that I worked for. Good positions in the company translates to having a decent enough pay - to allow me to buy nice clothes, get a gym membership and yes ... get my eyebrows plucked regularly. Thus the once ugly duckling is slowly but slowly transforming into a swan. Not just bright ... but beautiful.
Unfortunately though, one thing has not changed. The object of my affection remains to be out of reach. Over and over again ... I fall ... and when I fall ... I fall hard. But I can't be the right one for the love of my life.
Am I doomed to just be single my whole life? Or worse --- am I doomed to settle for the one who adores me ... but silently suffer ... because I adore someone else?
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